Thank you for reading each week and sharing in the story. I want you to feel supported and encouraged. If you ever want to contact me, just email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. I know how hard it is to reach out and it’s so easy to isolate ourselves, trying to protect ourselves from further hurts. However, if you are going through something and feel the affects of the fallout, please reach out. I would love to pray for you and support you.
I think when things fall apart and reality sets in, it is a pivotal moment. It is the moment of acknowledging the truth. What is the present reality I have to live with right now.
I feel like this is the moment when our eyes open and it’s not just shock and reaction anymore. It is also the moment when we feel the deepest pain. Others want to help us, but in reality, they can’t. They try to say comforting words or give their best advice; however, sometimes what is needed most is for them to just be present and acknowledge what’s happening. Simply acknowledging the present reality that hurts and can’t be changed so easily; that is out of our control. This is the first step of faith. Surrendering this very present reality to God.
I wrote a song that reflected this very moment. It is called When Was The Last, and someday I would love to record it. It was a journal moment for me, reflecting the reality that I didn’t know when was going to be my last kiss, or my last hug, or the last touch. I didn’t know that love could grow so cold so fast. Reality hit me hard, even though the love my ex and I shared had been so broken, with abuse, somehow I thought we’d survive. I ignored the signs for far too long and loved him even when it was wrong. So, when all of a sudden it ended, my heart was crushed. I realized the finality.
We can’t ignore these moments and we can’t stay in them either. The only one who can truly understand our hearts and feel our pain is God. Psalm 34:18 says, “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” (NIV) At that very moment, God is right there in the present reality facing it with you. I choose to talk to him, to cry with him and to walk through the pain with him.
I want to encourage you today to trust Him with whatever present reality you are facing. Let Him into your heart, and let Him begin the process of healing.